The Weight of Two Suitcases: From Anxiety to Adoration

Written by BJANKA

As I stood surrounded by the chaos I’d created in my room, attempting to squeeze my whole life into just two suitcases (and I suck at that, I end up with the heaviest baggage, focused to be stylish and not warm), waves of anxiety crashed over me like a relentless tide. Thoughts raced through my mind: Would my roommates and I get along? Would I ever feel at home in this unfamiliar environment? Little did I know, those worries would eventually lead to some of the most meaningful friendships I would form during my master’s program.

The first few days were a blur of introductions, awkward small talk, and tentative attempts at friendship. Each interaction felt like a step into uncharted territory, filled with uncertainty and doubt. But as we navigated the challenges of sharing a living space, something unexpected began to happen. Slowly but surely, the barriers began to crumble, and genuine connections began to form.

Through late-night conversations about our hopes and fears, shared laughter over inside jokes (and we have A LOT), and moments of vulnerability that brought us closer together, I realized that my roommates are my support system, my confidants, and ultimately, my chosen family.

What began as nervous excitement soon grew into a strong connection, built on shared experiences and understanding each other. Together, we weathered the storms of homesickness (mostly missing our dogs), academic pressure, and personal challenges, leaning on each other for strength and support every step of the way.

As the days turned into weeks, and weeks into months, I found myself unable to imagine my life without them. They were there for me during the highs and lows, celebrating my triumphs and lifting me up during moments of doubt. In their laughter, I found solace; in their presence, I found comfort; and in their friendship, I found home.

Looking back now, I realize that the anxieties I once harbored were merely stepping stones on the path to something beautiful and profound. Through the uncertainty and fear, I discovered a newfound resilience and an unwavering belief in the power of human connection.

To anyone who may find themselves in a similar situation, grappling with the uncertainties of dormitory life, I offer this simple piece of advice: Embrace the unknown, cherish the moments of discomfort, and trust that beneath the surface lies the potential for something truly extraordinary.

And who knows? You may just find that the greatest friendships of your life are waiting to be discovered in the most unexpected of places.